new talk

Because I'm such a research and want to know why sorta person - lately there has been several pertinent articles I've found regarding children from international orphanages, children with FASD comorbid with various other disorders and you know what - been there done that, very little is new information to those of us who live it day after day.  Frustrating to say the least.  Part of me desires to rise up to the challenge and initiate a grassroots-parent inspired informational marathon, a big part of me desires this.  However I know deep within that I can't do this right now.
  We as a family are starting just yet another transition phase, in our world, your world if you read this is made of many such moments in time.  There is no set date, no set age, nor is there any way to predict when these transitions deem it necessary to occur.   We all live in such of state of suspense and chaos.   We've had "stuff" brewing for a couple of weeks now, I knew that eventually it would all blow and come clean.  It did.  Had one daughter in ISS for most of the day and the other barely able to keep it under control.  After school we had our biweekly therapy session, how timely. 
When the therapists came out, not I, but one of my girls told her that we needed to have a group session first.  Hmmmm, interesting.  I laid it all on the table to the therapist, she got it, no let me rephrase this, she GOT it!  we talked for awhile about serious concerns and where we needed to focus, and she GOT it! She then had her individual sessions with each girl, then asked me back in to run by some ideas for future needs.  YES!
I'm going to be making a appointment with her to brainstorm some potential thoughts and ideas, she's on our side and wants us to succeed.  This is so comforting given that we will be facing the next 10+ or so potentially horrible, difficult years.
I'm transitioning as well, I have had to detach in order to think clearly and see what lies ahead.  Its going to hard, heartbreaking, emotionally exhausting etc.  Knowing this ahead of time helps me.  I can prepare my heart and my soul to see this through.  We are all they have - literally.  I will try to keep posting what I find out, how we survive, chances are though it won't all be easy or pretty.